Tuesday, July 31, 2007


starting a blog has become more like a responsibility, once you start most of them can't really stop. people comment on my blog entries being like a monthly column, where updates are only done once a month.

now i'm in school and the boredom is killing me. i very much want to blog on a daily basis but due to commitment to other things, blog seems to be one of the last piority. over the last few weeks, what should have happened, happened and what should not have happened also happened already, but oh well, i shan't give a damn of what is going on anymore.

i think i'm going to make the effort to blog on that very day of the event, it is such a chore to remember everything and the procrastination. in short over the last weeks, i've skipped many days of school because i'm already in holiday mood and i can't seem to wake up in the morning to go to school. i wished school started later i don't mind it ending later when the sun sets then it wont bloody fucking hot to walk to the freaking far mrt station.

all i remember that happened is i've went to Play one faithful saturday and it has been months and i really mean months since i last club and when i went there, we were expected to pay cover charge because they had a guest DJ, an aussie guy and had to pay 20$ which my friends and i didn't want to pay at all, and thus we decided to do something silly which might result in us being banned from play it was stupid but it was thrilling and fun and wouldn't mind doing it again until i become numb to the adrenaline.

First 200 door gift at St.james surf surf revolution goggles.. xP

in addition to clubs, i've been going to st. james powerhouse for the last 2 weeks, it was such a big difference in comparision to play and whynot. what's so good? it's cause of the lights, the ambience and the music. st. james fabulous sunday as said it happens on a sunday and school is next day which i can't afford to skip anymore i very much wanted to go school straight after st. james. but it is too physically and mentally exhausting to accomplish. On my way way home in the 147 bus ride, eye lids are heavy, everything seems to be in a swirl and off i go deep into lala land and missed my bus stop.


I remember it was ah geok's Birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH GEOK. he had his birthday celebrated at AJ infested spinelli and never in my life had i saw a triangular birthday cake, it was a normal cake covered in dark chocolate... YUMMY!! talking abour chocolate i seem to be in a chocolate CRAZY MOOD! i've been eating alot and alot of chocolate these few days, which is such a sin.


Ah geok's birthday cake..


i've been to the dentist and boy was it painful, i had to do root canal treatment, what is it? it is:

Example:









Process:







1. An opening is made into the crown of the tooth.


2. The pulp is removed from the pulp chamber and the root canals. The canals are then cleaned.


3. The canals are filled with an inert material and the access opening covered with a permanent filling. In many cases, a crown will need to be placed on the tooth.


it may sound simple but it is a tedious process taking 4 days and each day cost me $100. to the doctor it is tedious for the patient it is painful. i had several injections to relief the pain but it was still as painful so feel i could do better without the injections as the injection itself was painful enough. my mom gave me $100 to pay for the dentist but i took the money and went shopping instead. i went zara with garrick, benji and calli and spent $70. when i went home, mom asked me where is the money and why didn't i pay i said i lend the money to a friend. how am i going to cough out the cash to return her. DIE!!! ><" i bought a new so called slipper cum sandal from new urban male. haha.. borrowed $50 from fiona to get it.. all for sake of the surf surf revolution happening at st.james..
The slipper is white based i wanted to get a black base with orange straps but fiona claims it was ugly and i bought this and the white base is so easily dirtied.. SAD ><"




this is baby my very very cute doggie.. you see her cleopatra pose.. so sexy ahh.. :P







this Picture is taken at "THE CATHAY" i was in the toilet changing to my new clothes bought for clubbing at play, this white undies caught my eyes and i notice there were some "MELTED CHOCOLATE, WITH NUTS" ewww!!! the person just left his undies there means he must be walking ard BUTT BEAR and can feel the cloth of his pants.







This hairstyle is so totally cool with its vibrant colours i saw in a magazine at ming yang house he said it is going to take me 1 year to grow to that length if i wanna cut a hair style something like that.


A gift from Yeejian.. a necklance i've been eye-ing for sometime. :D

Sunday, July 15, 2007





Ben is finally free to blog, it is not like i'm really that busy with my life but more of lazy to blog and want to do something else that he deems is more important :P
there is like a roller coster of events that is happening in my mind right now there is much to blog but so little time and the feeling of laziness is one freaking big obstacle that i've to overcome.
i guess i shall start from the sentosa event i went together with kenneth to meet the rest of my other friends who have already gathered and enjoying themself under the hot sun. some were sun-tanning, others were floating in the water :P i wanted to enjoy myself there but due to the fact that we reach there late and they have to go off like pretty early i had no mood to like really engage in any of the activites happening there. i brought everything from my house, including towels and extra shirt and pants but!!! i forget to bring extra UNDIES! so what was the point of bringing the other stuff. i cant go walking ard town after that with soaking wet undies. lucky for my at sentosa beach near cafe delmar, the fucking place that i wanted to work at.. but that is not the point, there are many hotties there, i wore my contact lens and wear dark shades to cover my ever wandering eyes. :x the hot sun felt so good but i hate being super tanned such irony. i hate it cause i get tanned easily and in no time i would look like a charcoal. such a bummer. i saw this suuuuuuuuuuper hot hot hot one.. Awww!! my eyes almost popped out. my mind was like "I WAN I WAN" haha. such a despo.. ><" too bad not a singaporean. =(
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i met up with huihui... i super miss her lo. it's been sometime since i last saw her, she hasn't been appearing around cineleisure much.. i was together with michelle (laopo) and garrick.. shuhui wanted to get some box to store 1314 heartshaped straws.. she is such a sweetheart, i admire her straight-forwardness, boldness and courage. regardless of the odds, she stands fast and brave them. we went from places to places, except for cineleisure and in the end we went to plaza singapura and there she found the suitable box and agenda of the day was acheived. yay! ^^
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nowadays i'm feeling so lost and sad. i've so called lost my 2nd home. what was initially my plan to celebrate my birthday there, has now become bits and pieces of a broken dream. everyweek end i'm lost of plans, at least in the past thursday and friday i could go down to support mummy's performance at whynot, now everyday of the week seems so free, free until i have no idea what to do anymore.. friday and saturday could go down for clubbing and i can no longer hear whynot songs in club anymore. no more of line dancing already and no more socialising at whynot. all those have seems so distance to me already as it has already been 2 weeks. but i still can't get used to it. it has been very very long time since i last went down to maxwell, i miss that place, no more club hopping from play to whynot.. it is just play now and play is so crowded it is so totally no mood.
on the day whynot closed, it was a blast, not that i'm happy about it but the crowd there was awesome, it was something i haven't seen in a long long time. those regulars were there and almost everybody were there, it was super packed, there was the last performance at whynot and weijie dragged for the first time, and he looked good.. :) hot already lo.. then there was whynot bosses' last few words and it was clubbing till 3 am.
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Jeannie and i met up with garrick for the NDP preview, garrick happen to have the NDP tickets we went there only for 1 thing, and it is not the show but for the fireworks. we sat throught the entire thing but only to find out there was no fireworks i was like wtfish~! we sat through all the thing but no fireworks, we were disappointed but nevertheless, we enjoyed each other's company and it doesn't matter if there is fireworks or not but if there was it would have been WONDERFUL! ^^

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Next on the list is my aunty's baptism.. it was a sunday, it has been sometimes since i last saw my grandmother and my cousins.. i pushed aside all events lined up for me just for this day. i knew i had to have my piorities straight. family is definetely more important than the world. i went to church of singapore and my brother wanted to go to the toilet and me together with my 2 other cousins followed him and there we saw a minature toilet, omg it was so cute like something like alice in wonderland kind of feeling. it was the children toilet.. don't worry pictures will be included. the bad thing is the cubicles have no doors therefore those notti horny little boys get to see the little girls.. poor thing. :P

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so recently my clique has been very enthu about dota aka defeats of the ancients. it is like such an ancient game which is still living on till now, talking about long shelf life. so there was this day went to joe's house for a game of dota and there was this FHM magazine, the girls in that issue were quite loser, not even that hot and a turn on.. however there were advertised products which turned me on, which adds on to my list of wants is a CKJ watch with photo attached! :D


Last..__ ^^ *phew*

i accompanied kenneth to have his hair cut at gibbs salon near my house, the wait was super long and while waiting i browsed the magazines as i was thinking of having a savvy haircut soon, pleasant looking yet not common and happen to chance upon a few features i wish i could include in my customized hairstyle. i'm just afraid the pieces on it's on looks good but will not fit well together and the worst is it doesnt fit me at all. well below are the pictures.. ^^

i like the tail. i wan!

Above are just some of the events over the long period of absence from my blog, currently ben is undergoing a change, even he himself is unsure why he wants this change and even if this change is a good or bad thing. ben has always tried to keep things to himself, things he heard and see and things are bottling up, it is not like ben can't cope with stress but who loves stress? i believe everybody could live well without stress and stress could bring about alot of health relating problems.

ben is hardly ever like someone and when he does, he is always in for a roller coaster of final destination, the stupid thing ben does and even though of doing now looking back seems so foolish. ben has a new wish, he wans to be stronger he doesn't wants to be played he wants to live his own life without liking nobody. ben wans to keep low now.. he wans to stay at home after school, hang around with his other friends, taking a time off.

With time off from so much things, ben has more time for himself and he is very happy about it..
- ben can sleep early before 12.
- ben can do his school stuff like his professional profiling and final year project.
- ben can save money and money is very important to ben.
- ben can go to the gym. *ben loves it*
- ben can spend more time with my other friends before i join the circle.
- ben can please his parents and make them happy.
- ben hear less politics and hope and prays that politics will not come and find me. i just want to be a normal person..
Ben now is tired already.. as said by mummy
- !*joJO*! - : ~ ♥ ~ ~ ♬ ♪♩♫ ~ whAt i alSo WaNt ~ ♬ ♪♩♫ ~ ~ ♡ ~ says (4:01 PM):
jus that the process of liking is like hell...
- !*joJO*! - : ~ ♥ ~ ~ ♬ ♪♩♫ ~ whAt i alSo WaNt ~ ♬ ♪♩♫ ~ ~ ♡ ~ says (4:02 PM):
u donno wat the other party really thinking
which ben totally agree. ben feels he had tried to give my best and in the end he feels he isn't getting what he wants. ben believes in pointbreak when anything reaches over it's limit it will snap. ben misses him alot, places him in first piority, making every effort to see him, but ben feels that he doesn't even give a hoot. ben doesn't know what he is thinking if he really wants ben or... ben always feel like smsing him, checking how he is doing have he eaten and if he was ok, but in the end ben feels it is better to give him some space incase he feels that i'm an irritant. ben wants to hugg him as and when he likes but he can't because he doesn't even know his place in his heart and the thing is the public doesn't know about it. ben is tired of such a relationship.

is it so hard to find someone you love and love you as much as you do. if he could love me as much as i love him, i'll be really happy. ^^

Below is something kenneth ask me to put in my blog. dunno wad is it some flash thing well you can give it a try..




Pictures.___
little baby..
small snail so tiny..
Snail can eat snail.. O_O"

Science class. Anatomy of female body.
STRIVE FORWARD SAYS FIONA!
Smile like a Diva. ^^
Eggs on the grass..

Fyp Project... yay!
ME. ^^
Me in Class. =X